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3 Nov

So you know how sometimes life gets crazy? I do.

It’s been a while since I’ve written. In the time Finn has weaned, unweaned, grown, has gotten 100% more verbal and went trick or treating. Audrey is officially a kid, not a baby. We’ve been to Disney World, someone other than one of us has put the kids to bed and we flew our last flight with Finn as a lap child. I want to post more about weaning/unweaning, Disney, discipline and Halloween photos later. I have something brewing in my head about my work situation that I need to get out.

Finn’s birthday party is next weekend. I can’t believe he’s going to be 2. Audrey and I are going to our first ballet together on Sunday. She’s going to be so very excited.

More to come.


10 on Tuesday

19 Apr

1. I spent the weekend meeting a bunch of internet friends in Chicago. No kids. No husbands. Just a bunch of girls. It was fabulous and so, so much fun. Our group has been together for TEN years. It started as a spin off of a popular wedding planning website and took on a life of its own. We now have our own forum, are Facebook friends with each other and have met many members face to face but this was the first time a major get together came to fruition. It was amazing.

2. Did I mention Chicago? I can’t even tell you how awesome it was to go back. Since we moved to Austin I’ve only been back once before this weekend. A lot is still the same. No major changes to the skyline unlike here. A lot of the retail downtown has moved around but all in all it was exactly as fabulous as I remembered. Except for the weather 🙂

3. I missed the kids something fierce. I made the conscious decision not to bring my pump and it worked out fine. I had to hand express a bit Sunday night but otherwise it wasn’t too bad. Two nights away was just enough time – I would have been super sad if I’d have stayed another night.

4. F did pretty well without Mama there. Apparently he woke up once each night and slept in later than usual. While I’m glad there weren’t any major issues I’m kind of ticked that I get the short end of the sleeping stick. He woke 3 times for me last night and got up at 5:30. Daddy came up after he heard the crying, took F downstairs with him and the little stinker went back to sleep until 6:30. There are going to be some changes made in our sleep routine, I just need to figure out what they are.

5. I missed the Easter egg hunt but the pictures were adorable. F had a blast, of course. He picked up 2 eggs and stood around shaking them like the egg shakers in music class. Too cute.

6. A is aware that Easter = candy. And there’s nothing she likes more than candy! She is my daughter, after all.

7. We booked our flights for PA and will be spending Mother’s Day weekend up there. I’m super excited to see my family – we haven’t been up that way since July of last year. Nana will be down at the end of May for A’s dance recital so we’ll be getting a lot of family time next month.

8. I don’t know how we lived without a water table for so long but O.M.G. the kids are CRAZY about it. They’ll splash in that things for almost an hour – it’s glorious and adorable. The best is watching F try to drink out of it like the dog. Silly boy.

9. We’re getting the kids pictures taken on May 1 then I think it’ll be time for F to get a haircut 😦 I’m hoping it’ll still be curly but honestly, the ends are a mess. I will weep, I know it.

10. Still no offers on our house. Now that T will be working from home having the extra space is probably a good thing but damn, this is a bummer.

10 on Tuesday

12 Apr

1. T got a job offer and accepted! I’m beyond excited. It’s a work from home position with a large bank HQed in my hometown. He’ll have to go for some training and I’m hoping to turn it into a family trip. More money, great benefits and a real life bonus plan – woot!

2. Kiddos have both been sick. F threw up for the first time Friday night. Poor baby was still in such great spirits – you wouldn’t even know he was sick. He was fine when he woke up in the morning but we still took it easy on Saturday. A threw up last night – same as F. She’s home with Daddy today and is reportedly acting like her usual crazy self.

3. The girlie and I had girls night on Sunday and went to see the Knuffle Bunny show at the Paramount Theater. We had a great time and even went for pancakes (her choice) after.

4. I’m flying to Chicago on Saturday for my first ever girl’s weekend! No kids, no husbands – just lots of drinks and sleep. I’m nervous but so, so very excited. I wasn’t sure I’d be able to go but checked airfare at the last minute and was shocked at how reasonable it was. I leave Saturday and return first thing Monday morning. Just enough time to get a little break.

5. I have no idea what to do about nursing. I don’t think I’ll need to pump and honestly don’t think I’d get anything anyway. I’m a little worried about getting engorged though. I figure I’ll nurse F before I leave and hope for the best. Eek.

6. The house is still on the market. We dropped the price a bit last week and have seen a little up-tick in the number of showings. The house across the street from us just popped back onto the market with a price that’s 20K less than ours. It’s not as “upgraded” as ours but that’s still going to hurt when people are looks at neighborhood comps. We’re in a small holding pattern with T’s new job anyway but it’s still a major bummer.

7. Not sure what we’re doing for Easter. I was thinking about doing an egg hunt at our house and inviting some friends over but with me going to Chicago that’s not going to happen. I was sort of hoping we’d make it down to Miami – girlie is missing her grandma like crazy and we had a blast last year – we’ll have to see. I love that she remembers Easter last year. Kiddos growing up isn’t all bad 🙂

8. I’m getting a haircut AND COLOR!!! on Friday. I can’t remember the last time I got a professional hair color and I need it badly. A is getting her haircut while I’m away on Saturday. T loves her hair short and in a little bob – not sure what I’m going to come home too. F is probably due for his first cut but I can’t bear the though of him losing his curls.

9. Work is kind of blah right now. Things are about to pick up so I’m trying to enjoy it while I can.

10. A’s dance recital is next month! I’m entirely too excited about it. She’s not 100% sold on her costume – I’m hoping she’ll come around by recital time.

More nursing stuff.

15 Feb

I swear this isn’t all I talk about in real life but it’s been consuming me these past couple of weeks.

Things are getting a LOT better.  Since my post last week we’ve had a handful of good nights, one not so great night then last night.  6 hours of sleep IN A ROW.  I’ll get to that in a minute.

I had decided to loosely follow Jack Newman’s night weaning plan.  And when I say loosely what I mean is I read in about a year ago and am solely operating on instinct + what my poor pea brain retained from my past readings.  I decided that I would nurse MC to sleep then again at his first wake up which is usually between 10 and 11 then not again until after 5 am.  Naturally, the boy came up with a plan of his own. 

He’s opted to NOT nurse to sleep 3 of the past 6 nights.  On Sunday he nursed when he woke up but that was it for the entire day.  He did not nurse to sleep last night but he did want milk when he woke around 11:15.  I didn’t hear from him again until 5:45.  Let me repeat: SIX HOURS OF UNINTERRUPTED SLEEP. 

I can’t put into words how excited I am.  We’re taking baby steps but I feel like with this little nudge from me he’s really getting into a good sleep groove, finally.  I cannot lie, I love rocking the boy to sleep.  He nestles his head so sweetly on my chest and clutches both his blanket and his grinch close to him. It’s heaven.

I think that for the most part we’re done with daytime nursing.  It’s bittersweet, of course but it’s nice to not have to worry about the teeth.  I’m not committed to being done – it he asks he can nurse but he hasn’t.  I hope he sticks with the morning nurse – I love that time with him.  He wakes so happy and giggly and silly.  It’s a joy.

Sort of night weaning. Sort of.

8 Feb

I’ve been complaining about MC killing my poor nipples for roughly 5 months now.  Seriously people – it’s awful.  It tends to happen at night when we’re both too tired to really monitor his latch.  Friday night was awful.  He clamped down HARD on the left side and the right side already had a bad, bleeding crack so I decided then and there (at 10:30 pm) that it was time to quit griping and actually do something about this.  Living in fear of nursing your baby is no way to be.

I nursed MC to sleep on Saturday.  He woke around 11:30 and I didn’t/couldn’t nurse him.  He was awake for 4 long hours and was ANGRY.  He fell asleep in my arms around 3:30 and slept until 8:30 am.  Thank goodness.  We nursed when he woke up and he was perfectly happy and didn’t seem to be holding a grudge.  Interestingly he did not nurse prior to his nap and he slept for almost 3 hours.

I nursed him to sleep Sunday night.  He woke at 10:30 for some milk and went back to sleep.  Woke again at 1:30 and I told him no.  He was slightly less angry and finally went to sleep in my arms after 2 hours.  Woke again at 8 am, smiley and happy.  We nursed again. 

We played hard Monday morning.  He fell asleep in the car, transferred into his crib and slept for about 2.5 hours (yay!).  I nursed him to sleep and nursed him again at 11 pm.  He woke at 3:00 and was only up for 10 minutes.  He fell asleep next to me in bed, no nursing.  Woke this morning at 7 or so, nursed happily and all is right with the world.

My nipples are still cracked but no more bleeding.  His latch is a LOT better now that we’re both coherent when we’re nursing.  I’m hoping that he’ll stop waking at 3 am over the next couple of weeks – getting a solid stretch of more than 3 hours of sleep will be heavenly!

Tomorrow my baby turns 3

19 Jan

Two years and 364 days ago I was at work on a Friday frantically trying to clear out my in box and wrap up loose ends. My due date had come and gone. My body wasn’t really showing signs of impending labor but I had a feeling I wouldn’t be back in the office on Monday. So I worked and worked until I felt like someone could pick up where I left off and I went home and went about my business. I slept as much as a pregnant woman sleeps and woke up the next morning without giving work another thought.

I had some cramping and wondered if it was anything. My husband and I went for a walk over at the fancy pants outdoor mall and I had to stop every now and then because of the contractions. I was excited and very much looking forward to meeting my daughter. But the contractions fizzled out on the drive home. I tried not to be too disappointed and tried to take a nap.

Later that night we went to dinner at IHOP. I wanted pancake in the worst way. Flash foward 4 hours later and I was sure my “discomfort” was because of those pancakes. Or was it labor? I didn’t want to get my hopes up so I tried to blame it on indigestion. Eventually I realized that I couldn’t deny it any longer. I was in labor. And it was worse than I expected.

I desperately wanted natural child birth. My body betrayed me time and time again trying to get pregnant – I NEEDED to know that I could do this. We took a Bradley class to prepare and hired our teacher to be my doula. I did the work. I practiced relaxing. I did more pelvic tilts than I needed to. I felt prepared. My contractions came on fast and furious. I got in the shower to see if that would help (it did). Then I got into the tub (that helped too). Then I got back into the shower. My husband called our doula to give her a heads up. I got out of the shower (around 11 pm) and got into bed to try to rest.


Instead of resting I was busy crying and telling myself that I needed a c-section. The poor guy didn’t know what to do with me. I barfed my guts up and made an executive decision to head to the hospital. We finished packing our bag and proceeded to the car for the drive from hell. We live very close to the hospital so it wasn’t *that* far but I’ve supressed those memories because it was so awful. We pulled up to the ER entrance and my husband let me out. As I was staggering up the drive a perky couple walked in arm and arm and pronounced that the wife was in labor. I wanted to kill her. SHE wasn’t in labor – *I* was in labor. It only took one look to see that I needed some serious assistance but I waved them to go first. I’m always polite and they did get to the desk before I did. Besides, I was waiting for T and our doula so I made myself comfortable bent over a chair trying not to die.

We got checked in pretty quick. And skipped the whole triage thing. Then got me into a room STAT and did an internal. I was dilated to an 8 (holla!) thanksweetbabyjesus. Oddly enough, I was most comfortable in a semi reclined position so that how I stayed through the rest of L&D. I did roll on my side at one point with the hopes of getting a small lip of my cervix to pull back but for the most part I was “happy” just how I was.

Interestingly, my water didn’t break until I was pushing. A nurse offered to break it for me but I declined. There was meconium in the water so poor MM had to be suctioned but she was just fine.

Labor was short. My contractions started at 10:30 pm ish, we got to the hospital around 1:45 am and she was born at 5:36.

And I made it. I delivered her without any medication or interventions. It was hard but it was worth it. It gave me confidence in my body that came in handy as we struggled through breastfeeding. I knew I could do it and I did.

But that’s not the point of this post. The point is that MM is going to be 3. That’s three years of sassy girlie stories. Three years of snuggles and giggles and tantrums and love. She was born looking just like her daddy but is starting to resemble me more and more. She’s smart and funny and a breath of fresh air. She is my sunshine and I can’t wait to see her face when I pick her up from school today.

Catching Up

4 Jan

Wow. We’re back. It’s been a crazy two weeks since I last wrote – things kept coming up and I’d try to make a mental note to write about it but getting to a computer or other device that didn’t require typing on a tiny touch screen was impossible. Here are some bullet points:

* Christmas was wonderful. Both kids had a blast ripping into their presents.
* Flying was uneventful. No pat downs, no extra radiation. It was a nonevent. The airports were relatively quiet and we were only delayed by two hours getting into Miami.
* Christmas dinner was nice! We ate later than expected (of course) and it was difficult keeping up with the kids in a non baby proofed house but it was wonderful to be surrounded by family.
* I’m so glad that I’m still nursing MC. He was totally overstimulated by the time we got to Christmas Dinner at Aunt L’s. He cried the whole way from the airport to her house 😦 It was so nice to be able to settle down with him in a big comfy chair and feed him while he curled up in my lap. Honestly, it was such a mama moment for me – I will never forget it.
* I slept practically two days straight at MIL’s house. My sinuses are still aching but my cough is much better. I’m so thankful that we were somewhere that the kids were distracted and we had extra hands helping us. My body needed the rest and for once I was able to give in!
* MM is having a tough time with things. She’s so emotional these days, I worry for her. She’ll have hysterical crying fits and can’t seem to tell us what’s wrong. Her appetite is off and she’s barely eating which makes her even more prone to mood swings. I hope that now we’re back to school/work that things will settle down and we’ll get back into our groove.
* Music class is a hit! The kids are signed up for the winter session of Music Together – they both love it. I’m so happy to have an activity out of the house that they can both participate in together.
* Plans are underway for MM’s birthday party. I made a Happy Birthday banner for her and dropped off the invitations at school this morning. We have a few more that have to go out in the mail then we’ll just wait for the RSVPs. Next on my list: find a pink princess rainbow cake. No big deal, right?

It was so nice having time off but it’s good to be back!